I’m Still Pregnant, But…

There isn’t much in the way of hope. This can only end badly: in miscarriage or in urgent treatment.

I had a scan yesterday because my hCG hormone levels are continuing to rise. It didn’t show anything, but the doctor was expecting that, because the embryo is usually only visible once hCG levels reach 1,000 or more. However, the fact that they’re increasing shows that something is still growing, so she thinks this is a failing or an ectopic pregnancy. I’m being scanned and tested again next week, and in the meantime I’ve been given 24-hour contact details for the local gynae ward in case anything happens.

I am eight-and-a-half weeks pregnant. There should have been a heartbeat weeks ago. Instead I am carrying a child that will never be born.